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Confronting myself
by Amy Riley
June 22, 2011
As I participate in Tiara’s current 4-week TeleSeries “Are you settling?”, I find myself very confronted! We are looking at an area of life where we have a true heartfelt desire and yet are settling in some way.
I’m looking at wealth inside my businesses and here’s what I want: I want easy, free flowing, huge wealth in my businesses. I want a best-selling book and speaking docket that easily fuels an extremely profitable business that makes a difference for expectant moms around the world.
I see that I am stopping myself from fully going for this dream due to concerns of wanting too much, of not being talented enough, of wanting to be liked, of people not agreeing with all the concepts my book will present, of thinking I don’t deserve it, and of not being extraordinary enough to be the one doing this.
Being real with myself about what I want and what I’ve let get in the way has been confronting. It’s surprisingly emotional to admit to myself what’s going on inside my own head.
It’s amazing how us humans can sabotage ourselves in these ways. Here I’ve been working along for years writing a book and building and envisioning a thriving business, yet at the same time keeping my actions safe and reigning in my expectations so I don’t get disappointed. So strange! Why would I do this to myself? (The answer of course brings me back to my concerns.)
Well, now that I’ve laid it all out on the table and see that my desires are indeed more powerful than my concerns, I’m committed to stopping the sabotage. I want the thriving business and whatever risks and emotions come with it! I won’t lick the limiting thoughts overnight, I realize that. They are too engrained and patterned. And that’s okay. I know now what thoughts to be on the lookout for, and I’ll move forward in spite of the chatter in my head. I know I can.
How have you found that you sabotage your own desires? And then, how have you been able to have your commitment to what you want be bigger than any fears or concerns you might have?